School, work, STRESS!

This is going to be a short Blog

I started school this month and boy I'm glad I did. I'm actually having fun and I enjoy getting out of the house. I also was reminded about how much I actually forgot over the years lol Math is a real killer for me but im slowly picking it up again. thank god lol Sadly im in a low math grade and everything they are teaching i learned when i was a freshman. Im sure i'll be ok Ive kept up with all my math homework so far...yay for me since in high school i never did it yet i still had passing grades...funny. English is harder though...he needs everything typed well...i dont have a printer or Word to type on. That makes things hard. Thank fully my dad bought me a new cord for joshs laptop so i can at least get this stuff typed up then print it at school or grandmas house.

Along with school I started my Pure Romance adventure and i have to say I like it. Its actually a fun job. I like the people I work with, They are a fun bunch of girls. My sponsor has been sooo helpful and you know me i need all the help i can get lol  Ive done two partys and only had one sale :( but i have booked partys thought those partys so that better then nothing :) I really do like this job its fun and i have learned alot. Some of which i would have known before Josh left lol.

And lastly Stress...ive had so much lately within this last week and Im just tired of it. Not to mention i havent heard from josh during all this. My stress level is so high im actually making my self sick. So after this quarter im pretty sure me and the baby's all of them even Hollywood will be Washington bound

The Holidays are Over!

Well all the holidays are over. Thank god lol. I was running around like a chicken with its head cut off lol. I had to send Josh christmas. Now that wasnt easy and it was a lot of hard work. I had like NO help either...thanks for that....oh wait my mom did help me which is funny since she is in Washington while Im in Idaho. The family in Idaho although did NOT help and only offered after they found out I already did it all. How funny Right? ha ha NO not funny. Then they call me Lazy HA! Thats funny right? I basicly did everything I could to give my Husband Christmas while they watched. Then they wonder why he never calls or never wants to talk to them. Heck even sometimes when he does call they dont answer even if he leaves a message.Ugh I swear family can just stress me out. My husband trys to play the middle man that poor guy. Makes me miss him even more.

For Christmas I sent my Husband about 10 packages Medium and Large lol Thats not counting the tree. Which I am still waiting for pictures. ;) I sent him alot of stuff and some of it was wrapped just so he would have something to open on Christmas day. I sent him a BSU santa hat which he LOVED lol I also sent him one of those singing hat just for laughs. Im not sure if he got it. I will have to ask him next time he calls lol. He the tree all up and decorated just in time for them to move him like a week before Christmas....yep he had to take it all down. Thankfully a friend offered to watch it for him till he came back. Dont ya love the army? I sent a butt load of cookies and he ate them all lol and since i couldnt decorate them I put a jar of frosting in with some cookie stuff lol I bet he just ate them plain lol :)

 I also did this new thing call a Pie in a Jar. I made a bunch of apple pies and sent them to him. The all sealed perfectly :). I made a bunch and it took alot of time but he is worth it. They all are...execpt that one guy. He didnt get anything because he is a jackass and his wife is stupid but thats a whole different story lol. According to Josh all the pies turned out yummy and they all want to know how I did it lol

Here are just a few. They all want more pies lol. This was also the first time I made Apple pie. They all loved them:) Maybe I will make some more later on and send them more.


As a Suprise one day I actually got a package from Josh. It totally made my day. It was call the 12 days of Love from Afganistan...or something like that lol. I opened it up and it had a card with a note from him. Totally loved it. My fav christmas card by far.

I opened them early since i couldnt pack all the boxes. It had some Mary Kay stuff and some other little things here and there it was nice. Made me miss him. I got him a Sports thing but then I found out I got the wrong guy :( he said it didnt matter but still I feel bad. I'll make it up with his Birthday Gift :) and I know he will LOVE that lol.

I never got a call on Christmas Day. He said it was busy. It also brought up something. You see he hasnt been calling alot lately which was werid. So when he finally call I asked him...why? And the normal excuses of Im busy or internets/phones arent working wouldnt work since his own buddies were online. So he finally said he was scared. I asked him what he was scared of.  Well I guess alot of his friends are getting divorced and he was scared it was going to happen to us too. I explained to him the difference between our relationship and theirs. We know our relationship isnt perfect. We have alot of issues we try to work on, we never ever claim our relationship is perfect. We've been on a marrige retreat and it helped us alot. We where so happy on that trip and we learned alot. We learned that some of the stuff we where doing was actually hurting our relationship. Our marriage retreat was also at the lovely beach...I LOVE the beach lol

 Those where some of the happiest days of my life :) When we where at the beach we just hung out in the pool and in the water.When we wherent in classes. Me being so short he would like hold me while we where in the pool and he had to hold me while in the ocean because the waves where so stong lol It just made me feel like he would never let go no matter what. Hopefully after Joshs gets back we can go to the beach again :)

New Years was pretty boring. I didnt have any plans and I really dont like drinking. So i just hung out playing on Facebook. Then all of a sudden my phone started ringing...IT WAS JOSH! I was so happy. It was a totaly surprise. He never calls me at night. I got to talk to him for over a Hour :) I talked to him till the ball dropped and then some. I was so happy...it may not have been a new years kiss at midnight but at least I was one of the lucky few who got to talk to her hubby that night. Thats all I can really ask for. Whenever I talk to him I feel like a teenager in love. I just cant wait till his Homecoming <3 I love that man more then anything in this world.

Next Holiday is my birthday...my 21st Birthday. Im getting my nails done and hanging out with Bre not much planned. I know Josh said I could go out and have fun but I think I will wait till he gets home that way we can celebrate together :)

Winter is here

 Yesterday i woke up to it Snowing outside! Now I LOVE snow but I HATE driving in it. Our truck is not 4 wheel drive and our tires are shit. Thankfully in Dec  I will be able to get some snow tires and they are putting Hay in the back of the truck so hopefully I should be good to go lol By the looks of it all the snow will be gone by tonight but there might be more coming lol

Aside from the lovely snow i should be starting school soon :) I did the placement test on Friday. So according the the test im a math retard lol. I saw letters and I was like uhh what lol So most of my answers where guesses. Im really excited about starting school again. I know a couple other people that go there but they are in more advanced classes. The whole 2-3 years being outta high school really made me forget things lol I'm just excited because school will give me a chance to better my self and get a better job so my hubby isn't the main provider, I mean Ive had little jobs here and there but nothing that I could really make a living off of. I'm going to school for early childhood education, i want to be a kindergarten or Pre-School teacher. we'll see how it all turns out :)

I got most of my hubbys Christmas stuff sent out no thanks to anyone. I loved how everyone thought it was a fun and good idea but when I asked for help I got a big ol Fuck You. Then after I tell them I already sent it out then they said they where going to help. So I told them there is stuff I still need to get done and are they helping...hell NO! They just brush it off or pretend to not listen to me. There is only three things i need to do...make chex mix-joshs fav :)-make some sugar cookies and make some pies in a jar...only person who has even offered to help me is my friend and she is just doing it to help give the guys a real Christmas because they deserve one after all. They spend  a whole year away from their families and give up all the little things and I want to try to give them something back. I sent a bunch of stuff not only for my hubby but for all the other guys there except the one guy i really hate...sorry but he gets NOTHING....but that's a whole different story. So hopefully josh will be getting all his stuff soon :)

I know I don't update this blog alot and its not one about the military...its just a blog on my life and how i feel and what I do. I do it to keep busy and keep my family updated on everything and my hubby checks it out. Maybe even vent alittle :) it gives people more insited to who I am and how I feel about things. So I hope you enjoy my little Blog 



A little about me...

Three years ago yesterday I started dating the man who would become my husband, my best friend, and my Hero. We first met in wood shop. I really didn't notice him to be honest. lol I mainly took that class because it had mostly guys in it lol i was 16. My friend was in the class with me and I did end up meeting a lot of really nice guys and some jerks too-like my ex- but that's a story for a different day. While in that class I don't think I ever made one thing. Unlike my friend who let me put my name on everything she made which would have been the only way I passed that class BUT I did help and when I couldn't or didn't know how to do anything I would ask some random guy to please help lol. Which is how josh comes into the picture :) he was always there to help me if I needed anything. Which if you know me i am always asking for help lol Well we really started hanging out in FFA. He would study Meat and I would study Horse Judging-which I never got to do...thanks Mr.Wilson. During a FFA Halloween party josh made his move lol We where watching a movie and he put his arm around me and I put my head on his chest and we basically cuddled the whole movie right in front of the whole FFA lol The next day I got alot of crap for that but I didn't care. It took josh a whole week before he asked me out. I thought why not and well here we are three years later.

We don't have any kids...yet. We would like some but we talked about it and we decided right now is not a good time. We do have Furbabies...5 to be exact 2 dogs 2 cats and 1 horsey :) Collie is our Shelter dog. She is a Mix but she is a sweet heart.She is around a year and a half old. She is very smart. Whiskey is our Purebred Husky....she is the biggest pain in the ass but i still love her lol Cowboy is our kitty. He was our first pet we got together. He is a big boy but he is soo cuddly. He is the big man of the house. Even the dogs don't mess with him. Then there is Baby she is the youngest. She is a pretty calico. She isn't fixed yet so she is a pain in the ass. Then our newest Baby is Lil Miss Hollywood. She is a AQHA. She is a buckskin. She is three years old. She is going to be a Cow cutting horse and hopefully she will be good enough to compete. We also had one baby that we had to put down. Her name was Cheyenne. She was our first dog. She had a accident and had to be put down. We miss her soo much and we hope she comes back to us one day.

I have been a army wife for almost two years now. We where at Fort Bragg,NC  We lived on post and we where happy. Then everyone else decided  to get in our business. Which made living there a living hell. They are still in my business....sad really. I guess my life is soo much more interesting then theirs. But I did meet one wife and we got along great but then she moved away.  Then I met another wife who we got along Great! But she didn't agree with me going home during my husband deployment but it was to late to change my plans. So we got into a fight and she is still all angry over it.So we are not Friends. Ive learned a lot about the army I still don't know everything but I got around 18 years so no hurry. My Husband is a lifer. 

Well that's me...not much else. Not to bad for my first blog :)